Today I have woken up feeling lost and sad. And I can't seem to feel ok. I don't know if I will ever be ok. I see something so small, that means nothing but yet is able to change my mood in an instant. From feeling slightly ok to not at all.
Im trying. I'm really trying to be happy but I feel like I'm just wearing a mask. I'm not truly happy anymore and I don't know how to get that back. I am doing things. I keep doing things to get my mind off my life, off reality, off what has happened but as soon as I stop, my thoughts go straight back to you, to the hurt, to this loss. I'm hurting so bad. I feel so different. I am not the same person I was before all of this. I see others moving on with everything, from all of this and I just can't. I can't let you go. I can't move on from losing you. I want you back so badly my son. I just want you back. š°
Love Mom
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